nightmares of you

Always & Forever

2010-01-30T16:24:00.002+08:00

Everything's over.

I got no ways to save it.

She's done,

We're done.

hope

2009-08-25T23:27:00.008+08:00

Life has been so different.
I wonder what i did in the past to deserve this.
I really hope this would end soon.
Im totally hurt.
I do know my mistakes.
& i hope u do know yours too.
Im trying my best to understand,
My best to not get angry.
But u just hurt me again & again.
I gave u chances but u didnt appreciate it.
I got no one to talk to.
All i can do is cry.
Im trying my very best to
slowly change,to trust
& to understand you.
But its all not appreciated.
You just think of yourself
Leaving me alone.
Wake up would you.!

:'(

L-O-V-E

2009-07-28T01:46:00.006+08:00

Its how much u fight for our love.

Its how much u showed me ur sincerity.

Its how much u trusted me.

Its how u showed me this true love.

Its how u treated me.

How comfortable it is being with u.

I love u Ziela.!

why?!

2009-07-21T15:14:00.006+08:00

I keep asking myself why?

Why do i have to face this?

Why this is happening to me?

I can't think of anything now.

Im just not myself.

I can't function properly.

I've not had a good sleep for days.

It just hurting inside.

Tears didnt stop hearing u say that.

I could just look thru pics,

& think of good times.

Seriously,i dunnoe what im talking abt.!

hais.

In the eyes of all readers,

I BEG U.!

Dont do this to me PLEASE.!

& to those who have been my listening ear,

Thanks.! I love u guys.

2009-05-25T18:35:00.003+08:00

You know it baby.

2009-05-17T23:20:00.011+08:00

Baby,

Just to let you know that

Im always here for you.

Its us thats facing this together.

I will always hold your hands,

Guiding you through,

Making you stronger.

My Nur Bazilah,

Nothing can ever replace you.

I love you.

2009-05-08T18:57:00.005+08:00

The boat we sailed has

Went thru the storms & waves.

I hope u did understand what i said yesterday.

& hopefully,

We will continue our journey

Wif no more obstacle.

I love u so much,

Mybe too much.! Lol.!

Im missing u too much.!

I keep looking at the time,

At your pictures

& even daydream about you.

12am,come sooon please?

Nur Bazilah.♥

2009-04-30T00:39:00.003+08:00

Baby,

Happy 1st monthsary.!

How wonderful it is to have you in my life.!

You are everything to me.!
I don't even have words to match the way im feeling.!

Sorry if i ever hurt u.!

It was unintended.

I REALLY LOVE U SO MUCH.!

I'll promise to hold your hands through all obstacle,

Promising,

Never to let go.!

& baby,don't let go of mine.

2009-04-28T17:49:00.007+08:00

Beloved

ZIELA;

Sorry for the way i behaved.

I know what i've said hurt you,

But believe me i didn't mean to.

Making you sad has nvr crossed my mind.

But now i did,it made me hate myself.

Sorry im the caused of all your tears & pain.

I hope u still know how much i need you.

I love u so very much.! (sweared)

So i hope u read & feel this sincere apology

That comes with tears from deep inside.

Again,

IM SORRY.

Sincerely.

2009-04-26T23:46:00.004+08:00

I was very sick.

Down with fever,sore throat,flu

& my whole body was aching.

It was since friday i guess.

On saturday evening,

my parents brought me to

CGH A&E(accident & emergency).

It was a shocking 39 degress celcius.

& my throat has an infection.

Took blood test.

Injected a bag of liquid on the arms.

Inserted a tube camera through my nose.

I almost got admitted,

But the 3rd doctor i met said that

I should rest at home,

Take medication & see the results in 3days time.

Returning to hospital on tuesday for check up.

Lets see the result.

Im feelin better today.

Was all alone at hme.

But then friends came over to visit me.

Thanks bro(s).!

2009-04-23T16:02:00.006+08:00

At last,

My comp is back to working condition.

Phew~

& ya,now im stuck at hme,

Missing baby so much. :(

Like 7846249009472.!!

Really need a job soon.!

Goin interviews & interviews is so tiring,

But no calls received. -.-"

My mind is always so disturbed by " that" past.

I can't describe the feeling.

I've been trying to forget abt it.

But its hard.

It keeps playing in my mind. :(

Mybe time will help,

Hopefully.

2009-04-12T17:47:00.013+08:00

For you to know,

Each day I love you more.!

Today is more than yesterday.

But for all i know,

Its less than tomorrow.

One kind kiss before we part.
But whenever you're apart,
I somehow get a warm feelin inside,
Because you're close in heart.
But ur absence,
It's unbearable.
Baby,I miss you.

2009-04-10T15:41:00.002+08:00

Sorry ppl for nt updating blog often.

Comp is down.

FUCK.!

haiyaaaa...

Its only luck if i can use daddy's lappy.

Like now.

Haiiss.

2009-03-31T01:31:00.003+08:00

Love is not about finding the right person,

But creating a right relationship.

It's not about how much love you have in the beginning,

But how much love you build till the end.

Every moment spent with you,

Is like a beautiful dream come true.!

Cherished~

2009-03-29T19:16:00.008+08:00

Didnt had enuf sleep yesterday.

People give attutude.!

Brings my madness sia.

Argh.!

Talkin behind my back?!

Hahas.! Think ur great?!

Think again.!

To me,tats a childish game guys.!

I play a better game.!

& where i baby?

Im off drinking.

2009-03-26T04:23:00.004+08:00

I looked here;
I looked there;
And this time
Truly, I have no complaint,
She's in my heart.

& maybe, you'll think,

I have a thousand tongues,
Done thousands of lie.
But now, it makes no melody.

Thru this time,

I swear i love you.

2009-03-24T05:11:00.004+08:00

Suddenly,

i started thinking of those days.

The laughter.

The happiness.

~Moments Missed~

2009-03-22T16:46:00.010+08:00

Firstly,

Thanks to Jajaa for repairing my blog.!

Hahahas.!

CHEERS YAW.! :)

Im sick.

My throat is like,ARGH.!

& i keep vomiting.

Haiyaa.

Get well soon Syammy.

BITTERSWEET

But,but..!

I did went out even i was sick.

Hahas.!

Just to mit my dear friends & Ziela baby on Friday.!
& yesterday to catch my favourite band at SCAPE.!
They made a great performance
& guess wad??
I was given the mic to sing a line of the song "Capital E"..! LOL.!

Baby,i miss you.
& ya,i love you pantat.!
Hahaha.!

2009-03-13T01:53:00.006+08:00

When i kissed ur cheeks.

When i held ur hands.

I couldn't even think of any words to match the way im feeling.

Happiness

Nany The Kakak

2009-03-12T02:31:00.010+08:00

Sadly,just now will be the last time mittin Nany.

He off to serving the nation. LOL.

Lose one "kaki".

Haiyaaa..

Who's next?

wad happened?

2009-03-07T02:20:00.011+08:00

7th march

LOST OF FEELINGS.
Its when u played with smthing u nvr tried before.

starring;

wawan & apek

boredom.

2009-03-01T03:22:00.009+08:00

1st march.

apek,

cheer up.!

syammy,

cheer up.!

sorry guys if i didnt talk much just now.

im just down.

let me just get over it soon.

hopefully.

no mood for pics today.

next time.

20~21 Febuary 2009

2009-02-22T14:34:00.003+08:00

20 feb.

It was a normal slackin day for us till nany gave

me & wawan a little but happy surprise.

lol.

in the end,

knocked out.!

21 feb.

Anotha normal weekend for friends.

This time,its syed.

a surprise for evryone there.

Couldn't control.

Reach hme at 4.15am.

knocked out.!

For you,i dun feel the love u used to gave.

Those 3 words u used to say,

are no more heard in my days.

The warm hug,those tender lips & the whisper thru the phone

are simply missed,baby.

For 14th Febuary 09

2009-02-15T20:11:00.008+08:00

loved.

oh well,i junked.

totally,i didn't know where u went. pffts~

from the afternoon till night i called.
hp off,nenek says ur nt hme. & no msg or calls received.

till today,till now..

fuck.!im f**kin fed up.!

where the f**kin hell are u.!
& ya,i junked last night,so wad?!

for you. <3

2009-02-14T01:31:00.003+08:00

And even though I know how very far apart we are, it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star.And when the night winds start to sing a lonesome lullaby, it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.Somewhere out there,if love can see us through then,we'll be together ... Somewhere out there, out where dreams, come true.

Baby,you're never far away from me when your heart is with me.!

Let's flip a coin.Heads, i'm yours.Tails, you're mine.! :)

love.

2009-02-13T04:15:00.003+08:00

13 febuary 2009,friday

A human could easily fall in love within a month,
a day or worst to worst,an hour. hahs.
But wad if there comes a day,u lose tat someone?
It gonna takes months,years or mybe a whole lifetime to forget tat someone.

im in love wif u,
& i dun wanna lose u. :)

baby.

2009-02-10T03:53:00.004+08:00

simply,im addicted to her love.

& baby,i love you.! :)

aww.

2009-02-09T16:32:00.003+08:00

i could hardly sleep thinking about wad she said in the morning.

thru the phone she whispered;
you,i love you.. :)

;kebahagiaan ku tak terkata.

fuck.

2009-02-09T00:35:00.003+08:00

monday.9 febuary 2009

i dunnoe wad im fuckin feeling right now..!
its a full moon.. suppose to be smthing i enjoy.
except for my fwens,im not enjoying tis..! hais.
for wad i know,every heartbeat of mine now is tears.!
so unlike the past few days.
feel so like junkin.. pffts~ im so cntrolling tis shit right now.
smokin,smokin & smokin

& ya,
i love ya,baby. STILL..

It started from a crush. Doubts.

2009-02-08T04:27:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY,8 FEBUARY 2009
AGAIN.

i cant sleep & i ask myself. we only knew each other for a fews days.
dhen wud she not go out at night just bcoz i didnt like it?? hmm.
i asked myself,did she fell asleep or faked a sleep? hais.
its just doubts.

lets get started.

2009-02-08T04:13:00.000+08:00

sunday,8 febuary 2009

yeahs~
its fair now wawan. u made tagged. & i made blog. lol.
kinda 'kaku'.. mybe,very 'kaku'.. lost sia.
hahahahaha..! nvrmind. slowly,slowly. haha.!
thanks to Anna Aida for helping 99% of this blog.!! haha.!

& wawan.! guess ur back wif us.! :)